Dear Pentarchy,
Please accept this as my resignation. I am sure you will find a fast replacement that is better suited to your needs. What can I say, it was the best of times, it was the worst of times.
But not really, it wasn't really that dramatic or epic.
I will continue to post here as a solo agent.
Take care and have fun slinging mud.
I will leave you with the really nice link to an article that pretty much sums up everything that led up to my resignation.
37 million poor
Dilaram and I went out of town this weekend to say goodby to a good friend who is moving to Portland. When we got back yesterday afternoon it was frigid in the downstairs part of our house. I thought this was odd since the heat was actually on 65, much higher than the thermostat upstairs. I know heat rises so I just turned it up to 70 and commenced cleaning. Because I was moving around I didn't realize how chilly it truly was becoming with the sun setting until I went upstairs and it felt toasty. So I went in the basement to check on things and lo! the furnace that heats the first floor is not even on. I tried everything and it just won't turn on. It's cold and now all my plants are starting to look real unhappy. Of course this happens when it's below freezing weather, not last week when it was almost 70 for a few days.
When I called the gas company phone number that was on my furnace they informed me that they won't even come look at it until I pay the balance of my bill.
*Background Info* We received a gas bill for December for $550 dollars! A guy from the gas company came out on Jan 4th and read the meter which is inside.. So I called them back and asked that they come read it again. They realized they screwed up majorly at some point and our bill for January ended up being $94. How does that work, how do you go from 550 to 94. It's not like it's been really warm for the past few months. I think something is still wrong. ANYWAY, regardless, we haven't paid our whole balance and I know we need to get on budget billing. I'm just so irate at this point that if we didn't have a gas dryer and oven I would let them shut us down and buy some fucking space heaters.
The upside to the furnace not working? I guess my gas bill will go down...ha, it better.
So, awhile back A-ron was talking about how he is a true believer. Perhaps this is a matter of semantics, but I think fundamentally it's similar. I can't say that I'm a true believer, but I am a dreamer. If you broke down everyone's inner hopes, we may all have similar dreams for the worlds that exist in our hearts. Our dreams may all coincide nicely. What I dream and imagine is probably not all that different in some sense from A-ron's, Locos or even (gasp) numerous villified political icons that we won't name.
I think some of the differences are noticed in the acting out of these dreams and hopes for the world. Much of my dream consists of stuff right out of"Imagine" by John Lennon . I really do want the world to be peaceful and for no one to suffer. A bit high on the improbabality scale? maybe. But that is my dream, and I do not really have a true belief in that happening. This dream has nothing to do with going around forcing my dream on others. It's hard for me to readily accept the possibilty that at the root of it all everyone may have similar dreams to mine, because I look at the world around me and it seems like a total paradox to the world in my heart and head.
But, some part of me has to be able to see the human side of what I could so easily term evil, or bad because I don't agree with it. And I know that because I am like this inside, because I strive for balance, understanding and acceptance that I am different from some people. The difference being that I do that at all. That I do not blindly see my way as right and any other way as wrong. This is not something that is easy or natural, but I make a conscious effort to try to do this. It creates many internal struggles,
But I am trying. And I hope that at least makes a difference.
And just when I thought my elders didn't have anything to teach me.
This article made me really happy, warm and fuzzy inside.
And I smile
This would be really cool to be able to get away from rat races and cities. And having land in the forest like that would be nice too.
I wonder though, if this kind of thing will end up being like Xanadu?
I'm waiting until he makes the kind with bathrooms in them though.
Here's their website
Ok, this guy is friggin crazy
He's running for Governor of Minnesota. You really must check out his site to get the full impression and also to read his platform. He even has a presidential page!
Hey, if you don't vote for him, he might impale you.
Who the hell is this demon?!
My favorite part of the "Aliens" is that even the aliens have little bunny ears.
Some of you have probably already seen these, whatever, it's funny.
Funny Bunnies
What was No.1 on the day you were born?
UK
Mull Of Kintyre / Girls' School - Wings
US
You Light Up My Life - Debby Boone
The day I turned 18?
US
One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey with Boyz II Men
UK
Earth Song - Michael Jackson
Damn, that's all pretty sucky.
Are you any better?
I have read about this for a few years now. In the article they talk about how people are disrespectful. I think it's a damn shame that people can't let anything remain alive with poetry and signifigance in this world.
R.I.P. E A POE
I really feel let down when I read stuff about how stupid people are. Like, what would they accomplish by unmasking the visitor.
Can't they leave it alone? Why must these people have no mystery?
It bothers me.
So while this one act of wordless respect really touches me, the reaction to it makes me want to touch the idiots, with my fist or something.
We all have to have goals, or we should anyway.
I've decided to make a list of the things I want to be when I grow up, to help my perspective I suppose:
1. Piano Tuner
2. a wraith or at least an UE
3. Teahouse owner/operator
4. My own personal clothes designer/sewing mistress supreme
5. Linguist or translator of scripts, at least for my own amusement
6. Gardner, esp. orchid grower
7. Cello player
These are just a few things that I want to focus on. Which means I need to quit my job....
This is great,
A response to A-Ron and Heather:
you decide:
Forbes says that KC is the worst for culture...go figure
and then there is this!
Cass, you're right on the money, you shouldn't be moving! unless you're planning on settling down!
Denver? Single?
Hey, so this is more of a bulletin focused on locomocos wise career choice:
check it out
I applaud you my friend
I'm actually on the "good" list,
at least it's not on the poor list
althought, it's all relative, even though attorney may be on the poor, most of them still make waay more than I do.
So,
I became painfully aware of how I have not really ever posted a truly devotional piece about the one I love.
So, Dilaram, is for you.
He taught me how to believe in love again, in so, so many ways.
He touches me as no one else ever could; and when he does it feels like that poem that Walt Whitman wrote, about singing the Body Electric.
He has inspired poetry and lots of sentimental stuff that I won't divulge, because it is for him only.
I never really thought much of marriage, and still don't,
but I know that my marriage to him will make all of the reasons that I don't think much of it null and void.
He is my unspoken heart in this world.
SO, I'm posting some pictures from the most fun birthday party I've had to date, really the first "party" I've had for my birthday.
Some of The Attendees
There was much sushi and much dancing, 
Many people wanted to dress me, and maybe kick my ass a little
Ok, so I got a lot of really cool presents, my sister came,
my boyfriend kept lavishing me with gifts, including the camera that took these pictures.
The company of many friends, it made all of the holiday crap that followed not as painful. Thank you everyone who shared it with me.
Ok, so I just read the most touching and amusing story I've read about the holiday season in many years.
It brought a twinkle to my eye and a chuckle to my belly.
I'd love to make a film short of this. A docudrama, if you will.
this is so beautiful
Ok,
So I've got to say it, I'm sick of all this Xmess crap. I am a scrooge, a grinch and really bored with all the hype. I know many companies make all their money for the rest of the year in a few weeks or months from all this. Whatever.
I don't have the tradition instilled in me to get all blubbery when I see stupid nativity scenes, I don't start saliviting when I hear sleigh bells and I think the best thing ever made about Xmess was the "Nightmare Before..."
I'm bothered by the guilt associated with buying gifts for people, even relatives that you don't even like that much; I guess it's quite a fitting behavior for good little Christians though.
I like winter, and I even like the idea that you should be kind and giving to your fellow man, but that should be all the time, not just once a year, on a fake birthdate of some over-publicized dude who may or may not have walked around in the fertile crescent many many years ago.
As for most of the traditions that are perpetuated during the holiday season, most of them are much older than this whole "Christmas" thing, and that whole conversation is so trite I'm not even going to go into it. But if you want to read more, go Yule up your butt
So enough with my rant, below are some activities, info and just stuff for people who may or may not share my sentiments
*Holly Jolly My Ass*
"Have a holly jolly Christmas" my ass. The best time of the year?
I don't don't know if I'll survive all of this bloody "cheer".
"Have a holly jolly Christmas" songs like this fill me with fear.
And if this season is the best it gets, just shoot me dead right here.
"Have a holly jolly Christmas"....what is it to have a "holly" something? It sounds rather queer.
"Have a holly jolly Christmas" I took out my Walmart gun, and drank another beer
"Have a holly jolly Christmas", I went across the street, and shot my neighbor's plastic raindeer.
"Have a holly jolly Christmas", plays as I sit here in my cell.
The guard tells me to can it as I hollar "Christmastime can go to hell"
if you want to read more anti-Xmess songs and find fun activities, go here
I wanted to share a few things I found this week that amused or interested or just scared me.
In honor of my birthday which was surely an amusing but scary day, 28 years ago:
Scary
Read about him here
Tis the Season
So this post is not only about how awesome December 15th is because it's my birthday, but also because I am finally putting a new post up AND I have finally figured out the whole fucking layout finally!
Have some cake!
