Fuck this, Fuck that, oh, and fuck that other thing too

As I grow older am I much more able to recognize my immaturity and the grooves that it's worn down in my personality. I am also much quicker to anger, but in my mind it's for good reason, and not just silly little things like stealing my shirt or something.
Perhaps it's because I'm to the point where I can see bullshit coming from a lot further out, and I am not as tolerant of it, and try to keep it out of my life as much as possible.
It might also be that I'm just a bitch. Or maybe an elitist. Or maybe a separatist. Or maybe arrogant to a fault.
I might be all of these things, but that is not all, and the things that are part of that "not all" are why I am that way in the first place.
If I were merely a color right now, I would be the color of a bruise that still hurts after two weeks.


Landscapes of peril and moments of reflection

I have been insanely busy as of late, and find myself needing to just release all the tension. It's not quite time yet, but soon, I hope.
I have one more motorcycle class before I have my endorsement. I have to pass the test next Sunday, but things are going well, so I shouldn't have a problem. Last Sunday we rode for about 5 hours. It was so very tiring that I came home and promptly passed out for most of the night. Between working and class and animals, I have not had much time to reflect on what shape my life has been taking on. On the immediate horizon I see much more freedom once I can legally and more confidently traverse the city on my scooter, and that makes me happy.
I am also seriously considering taking time off from the coffee shop, or just quitting it altogether. This is one of my only points of procrastination, because part of me doesn't want to quit, but the balance is tipping towards being able to have more of a personal life.
I have a steady dj gig, and possibly another one in the works. This of all the things I've been doing was something I did not foresee or plan on. I seemed to fall into it, and it's also the source of the most satisfaction for me as far as "job" stuff goes. If I got paid for it, it'd be even cooler....
I am hoping to make a trip to Colorado soon, in the next few months, I think. I really want to be able to spend some time with my father and family and friends, and my father, did I say that?

These are all good things, and I am trying to focus on these hopes instead of the dirty house and lack of time and sicknesses and pain and worlds falling apart.
And that, has been my most signifigant accomplishment lately. The word for today is hope, glad I haven't lost it.

Oh, and my wisteria is blooming!
(This isn't a picture of mine)


strange behavior, such as blasphemous screaming, convulsive seizures, trance

This is the result of what happens when I google "my life".
(actually, it was something more like blaspheming in french or something.) Which is quite appropriate these days.


Six 2 Nine and unapologetic for shameless self-promotion

Kind of like 5 to 1, except we got the tunes, baby. I great friend of mine made this little flier for me.

It's not like most of the people that read this can come anyway, but you should if you can.


The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated.

The wrong person is persecuted, not that this is uncommon.
But, if you were to see this dog, would you find yourself thinking the criminal is the lady who helped, or the owners who did nothing - except create the situation and then neglect it?
This has made today a very strong "dislike humans and their bullshit bureaucracy" day.
I'm going to go throw up now.


little quotes

In the dark times
Will there also be singing?
Yes, there will be singing
About the dark times.
~Bertolt Brecht

Some people are raised on a hill, others in the valley. Most of us are brought up on the flat. I came at life at an angle, and that's how I've lived ever since. (J. Winterson)


Swimming houses, Dutch ingenuity and my very own clubhouse

No exactly Toad Hollow but still very cool

This could be a nice addition to my other future home. Now all I have to do is figure out how to get Dutch and Canadian citizenship and enough money to buy the houses and the land, that's not that hard, right?